I'm really tired.
Somehow, i'm tired of so many many things..
The first on the list - studies
Been studying today and I'm drained out.
Fell asleep a while and then i realised that I've not studied finished.
Do u think i would be able to go for the BBQ tonight ?
Do u think if i were to go, would i have the time to study finish everything ?
I'm afraid i can't... But i wanna go..

Next, I'm tired of my life at times..
It's like i dun have time management at all. Seriously, i don't think i do.
and it bothers me at times...
I want a revamp of my life.
And i need it soon.

Von's birthday and swimming!

Went to 'Rebel' yesterday to sort of celebrate Von's birthday. But it wasn't also much of a birthday thing. More of a clubbing event. And this time, went clubbing with CK, Richard, Ping Ting, Ryan and Jun Jie. Never gone with them before but it was fun!
Rebel's song were good too! haha..

anyway, today in the evening, i went swimming with my family. We went to NSRCC.
I must say that i has been one of the best family outings ever. First, me n vic were trying to stand on my bro's shoulders and then, we went to "fight" with each other. i sat on bro's shoulders and vic sat on dad's. It was the best thing!
went to Jumbo to eat dinner and we went to eat crabs. However, i must say that the black pepper crab was much better than the chili crab. The funny thing was my mom went to ask for the napkin to place on her neck! it was damn funny!
really enjoyed myself...

would it always end up like this?

seriously, there's so much one can take.
Then why am I taking in so much that it hurts me inside every single time?
Why can't I not let what people say affect me and my everyday life?
Why must I bear all these on my shoulders
I just want to throw them all away.
Dun put it on me. It's way too heavy.

Can't you, of all people, take it away?
I depend on you much more than anyone else.
If you can't do It, who can?
But the thing is EVERYONE else can. but not you.
Sometimes, u are the one who adds to my hurts.
It's really painful.

Do I really have to cry all throughout this journey with you??

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2 entries in one day. Unusual for me ain't it.
for someone who doesn't even blog much..
Well, the above post was actually written in NP, during dance.

Oh ya, wondering why i used their blogger template ? cos i'm so sick of all those templates tt i got to look for to make my blog nice.
Don't have the flair so don't need to try.
haha. but it look simpler now. i prefer that.

What a serious case of impulsiveness.
Went to buy a pair of sport shoes.. it's the weirdest thing yet!
i went to Queesnstown shopping centre to look for a pair. Decided on the brand Aasics cos heard its good. went to look for Kids designs cos the adult size can't fit me.. but the thing is, when i tried the adult size 6, it was tight! but it look damn huge and puffy. Made me look like i'm Ronald McDonald. Ended up choosing a kids size 4 shoe. It fitted well and it didn't look too big and cushion so it was just right!

But of course i didn't go by myself. I went with my colleague, Jun Jia. I think he's like my shopping buddy lah. Like when i need to buy something, he would be there. haha. soooo.. off we went to watch a movie. "Mall cop" was the movie.. But that wasn't what i really wanted to see. Because we booked the tickets online, we couldn't change the movie. I wanted to see "marley and me". that show was almost finishing cos they had only 2 timing slots left.

the mall cop show was at 5:25pm and while waiting, i totally impulsively decided that i wanted to watch Marley and Me too. and thus bought the tickets for the 7pm show. it was just nice that once the first show was finishing, the second show was just going to start. so went off rushing for 2 shows.. haha.. but of course, Marley and me, was TOTALLY worthed it.
totally.

I really really need a breather. but i don't know what i must do. Am i supposed to follow my mind or my heart? It's so difficult to choose ain't it. Cos what your heart wants is ur deepest inner desires, but what your mind wants is the logical and most correct thing to do.
So... Follow the heart or the mind?

Am i paranoid or am i just too sensitive?
I don't know but it seems that disapproving glances are seen everywhere.
AM i such a weak and totally fickle person ?
i don't want to be...

This period is a tough one for me.. Would most probably be my far most stress period.
To what extent of the stress? I'm not sure. But hopefully, the outcome would be a fulfilling one. Something that i pushed hard for. To be able to juggle studies and dance.. That's quite an achievement for me, i must say. I admit that i totally have bad time management. so I'm really trying this time and im glad that i have friends who would support me..

I actually didn't want to compete in the upcoming dance competition on the 14th of march because i have tests all around that date. i have one test on the 12th, and one on the 13th. So it's quite a big rush for me. But Michelle and Von talked me out of it and i'm glad i listened to them. Cos i really want to try to go all out for something that i want to do and not do it slip- short.

i really hope my sweat and tears pays off. Reallyy hope so..

Aren't memories such a wonder?
Memories, full of bliss and pain, haunts us down
Isn't it a symbol of human nature ?
Then why memories are so difficult to forget ?

Those good 'ol times, those pain-shrieking times
All tattooed into our soul,leaping out when one least excepts it
And allows the heart to ponder those memories
Thus confusing the heart of present times

So, which would one rather be in ?
Jumping in and out of virtual and reality
To be in present times or in the past ?
That's one answer i too don't even know.

Check out this lantern!
The biggest lantern made in Singapore was in Harbourfront Centre.
Magnificent isn't it? I wonder how long and how many people it took to make such a huge thing. That made me wonder... Some people can find the time and passion to do what they want. Like if they want to draw or dance, they would really put their heart and soul into it..

My new passion - baking.
I wanna bake. And the first thing to do is buy an oven. Easier said than done. An oven doesn't come cheap i tell you..
Darren motivates me in weird ways.. telling me that he doubt i would last long in it. Telling me that i would give up after one or a few tries. I'll prove that he is wrong. That was what he is banging at. Wad a weird way of motivation. Something i don't have a positive effect to, but i'll try..

wish me luck! i think i need it.

That's Frisbee.
A simple game that is one way or another be introduced to us during our childhood. And yet, its now a CCA or can also be a competitive sports too.
The way how the Frisbee is thrown so smoothly and gently awes me.. Haha. But! getting hit by that is definitely a painful thing. Haha. that's one gentle, yet painful sport.

Christmas

Christmas....

Christmas.. Christmas seemed different this year. The season of giving and sharing, where everyone gives wishes of joy and happiness. However, seemed alittle more gloomy and sadness. With a series of unfortunate events, one would only stop and wonder why such things happened on such a joyous occasion.

sometimes, life's just seem soooo.. unpredictable...