Do i not smile as much anymore ?

My grand aunty told my mom that I don't smile as much as before like when a child has a free mind without any of those "adult" problems. Maybe what she said is true.. I'm not that bubbly, all- round cheerful kind of girl anymore... where with all the times i stone and think of all my troubles n little bits of problems...

Wonder wad kind of problems a 20- yr old girl would have ?? That.... i wonder too. but.. even if i have "old" people problems.... i still got my darlings to make me smile!!!
i wish i can see them everyday.. they are my sole reason for me to smile each day... and yet, i can only see them in dance.. it ain't fair. i want more than just that. haiz. i want to see them everyday... i want to see pin, melody, michelle and shi jiao everyday.
can i please? i really want to. and then, my life would be filled with hugs and kisses each day.

i love them so very much. they are like my little sisters and i would never ever want anything to happen to them. i love them all to bits.

I LOVE YOU MY DARLINGS!!!

you are the ones that brought joy into my life....