Is it just me or that i feel that dance to me has lost its spark. i think its me. What i feel in dance is like it's not really fun anymore. maybe cos i feel pressurised when i dance with Darren. It's like i keep on focusing on getting my steps correct that it gets funless. even for samba class. everyone seemed to be having so much fun except me.haiz... the 2nd time and it's already so stressful. will it always be the same with every practise i have ?

anyway... i got another problem. it's about my job a Haagen Dazs. i already told Tracy that i would be finding a full time job in July. but i guess i sort of took my time and all.but the thing is i told her in advance. and now that i'm may be changing soon, she tells me that she cant accept it if i were to work only one day. so means she expect me to work full time in the morning and work for her in the night. and sh knows that i have dance. i would be like so damn tired lor. Then she goes on by saying that if i work full time for like 3 months, it's like as though i might as well dun cos i wouldn't learn anything much. but that is not true at all. my attachment was 2 months and eventhough i didn't do anything related to banking and finance, at least i learn something about excel. haha. But sriously, i think that she's really selfish to hold me back. she said that if i go, it's like wasting her time to train me and all. but it's not her tt train me most for mornings. It's Pei Feng. haiz....