I sort of knew that the higher the expectancy, the higher the disappointment. But I didn’t know that disappointment was such a bad feeling.

I would never want to expect anything if I knew that this would be the outcome.
I didn’t ask for anything much or something big or expensive or wad sort. I didn’t. I just wanted a memory. Wanted something that would remind me of that special day. But it wasn’t what I expected.

Why expect so much Alicia. You had it coming. You know that you always get disappointed when your expectations are higher or that when someone recommends u something, obviously the expectancy would be higher. Why put yourself thru this over and over again? I too dun understand. I guess I’ll never understand.

So wad am I supposed to do now? Am I supposed to just act normal and like everything went well? How am I to face you when if I think or look at you, I subconsciously recall that memory I don’t want to remember.

I always thought that Firsts are always special and all. Guess it only applies to everyone else. How can I face you now? Can I not face at all?



Once bitten, twice shy. Never again would I do this again…
But will that be never???